Journal 5<\/p>\n
By: Carly Cornish<\/p>\n
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The topic of my journal five entry is the idea of not being beautiful in the eyes of society and marketing. For most of my life, I haven’t felt like I was beautiful. That I wasn’t thin enough, or tall enough, that my hair wasn’t straight and my eyes weren’t exotic colors like green or blue. My eyes were just brown, I was and still am below average height, and would often be made fun of because I was so short. My hair was a color that didn’t catch anyone’s eye, just a dirty blonde, which later on darkened even further. It frizzy, crazy and curly, it never looked shiny or neat like the hair in magazines. My skin was never as clear as their’s, my jawline was never as strong. For many years I judged my worthiness on how closely I could look to the women in the magazines. If I couldn’t look like them I’d just hide and that’s what I did for many years. But the idea of women being beautiful no matter what they look like was something that hit me when I started going to college, most specifically this year. I’ve been treating my body better, by not hating it, which has helped me to lose some weight, and I no longer wear much makeup. I never thought I would be able to walk out of the house without a full face makeup, ever, but I’ve been doing it for a little over a month now with no end in sight. Occasionally I’ll take a few photos in snapchat, I usually delete them after a few days, but once or twice I take a more natural-looking one, that gives my skin a little more of a glow and use it for my facebook profile. Although my facebook profile is a little altered, I wouldn’t say that it changes the way I behave on social media, or how I see myself. I may have apologized for how I looked when I was younger but I never let anyone question me about my character as a person, I try to be as real as I am in life as I am on social media.<\/p>\n
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This is the celebration of women who don’t fit the fashion and beauty standards of Hollywood:<\/p>\n